GUILT

For my 43 today, I pulled out my bands (the perfect travel equipment!) – 

Turbo Fire Band
Turbo Fire Band

I decided to do a combo move with them to work my shoulders and upper back.  I stood on the band and did a right arm shoulder press and a left arm row.

start
start
press up and row
press up and row

I’m not gonna lie – this move ended up being hard – and the surprising part was that the row was harder than the press!!

And, of course, another set of 43 with my arms switched.

ready?
ready?
go
go

By the end of the two 43 sets my arms were shaking!!!

My workout today was actually really short (just under 15 minutes) but intense!!  I’m still participating in Taylor’s 6 week challenge and the workout this week is 1000 reps (700 of which are mountain climbers!!) for time.  This is a perfect workout for this week – next time I think I will do it on the beach!!!

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Guilt – so many emotions all wrapped up in one word.  I think that some of us (like me) have a really hard time letting go of guilt.  For as long as I can remember I have lived with guilt.  Growing up (especially when I was in high school) it was a constant.  And, becoming a mom brought a whole new level of guilt into my world.

Screen shot 2013-07-23 at 7.58.58 AMI struggle daily with trying to let go of all of the guilt I feel.  Most of it these days is all brought on by myself.  Chris and the boys never say things to purposefully make me feel guilty – they don’t need to because I make myself feel guilty without any help!!!Screen shot 2013-07-23 at 7.57.50 AMMany days I feel like I carry guilt around for no reason.  I have tried to let a lot of things from my past go and tell myself that I should not feel guilty about things I can’t change.  And over the years since becoming a mom, my guilt has actually lessened (not gone completely but much less!) – I spent years feeling like every thing I did was the wrong thing – I was totally clueless about babies and kids and made many mistakes but I think in the big picture everything is really OK.

Screen shot 2013-07-23 at 7.57.18 AMSome days I feel guilty for things that are actually completely beyond my control – but that doesn’t make me feel any less guilty!!!

Even now when we are having a great time on vacation –DSCN1560(how could you not have a great time when this is the destination?) – being on the beach, with my family and some really great friends – I feel guilty.  

My sweet Poppa has been in the hospital since Saturday morning.

Poppa with my boys!
Poppa with my boys!

I’ve talked to my twin brother and my younger sister who drove down to be with him in the hospital and still don’t know if I should try to get to Texas or just stay here with my family.

Guilt – a constant struggle to decide the right thing to do and then live with the decision!!!

Do you struggle with guilt?  How do you overcome it?

 

Happy Tuesday!

Kim

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