My Biggest Failure – Friendships

Today I did a box plank jump  that Taylor (Lifting Revolution) demoed (along with some other great moves I can’t wait to try!).

To do the move, get in plank with your feet on the box (or stool if you don’t have a box).  Hop your feet down in front of the stool and back up.

 Not gonna lie – this move sort of scared me.  It took me several practice hops to feel like I had any sort of rhythm.  Talk about a great all-over body move – TRY IT!!!

And – another running day!!!  1.5% incline – 8 miles – 59:51 plus 1 more mile nice and easy to cool down.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 8.39.50 PMSometimes I look at my life and wonder if I’m a complete failure at friendship!!!

The past few years have really made me question my ability to truly form relationships with others.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 8.40.09 PMChris has heard me question this characteristic  a few times (way more often than he prefers probably!!).

I just can’t figure out why I seem to fail at friendships!!!  I’m not talking about the acquaintance type of friendship but the close relationships – the type of friendship where there are no secrets and no need for pretending.  The friendships that you think are the forever kind.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 9.01.44 PMI have always been very independent and able to fend for myself so I’m not really a “needy” friend.

Sometimes I wonder if the fact that I don’t even have a functional relationship with my mom plays a role in the whole friendship thing.

I completely understand that people change over time but I also think that true friendship is stronger than those changes.  However, I’ve learned (been told) otherwise in the past couple of years.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 8.42.46 PM

I don’t think friends have to talk every day or even every week – I think that true friends just  pick up where they left off.  Until one day they don’t.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 8.44.36 PMThis past fall has been a huge time of transition for me.  I don’t know the first thing about owning a business and between trying to figure it out and keep it running (without hiring anyone), working out, blogging and most importantly, keeping up with my family, I haven’t done much with anyone and that has cost me at least one friendship.

Screen Shot 2014-01-13 at 8.42.23 PMI don’t really know what to do to change any of this. I  just know that I feel completely inadequate as a true friend at this point in my life.  Part of this is my own feeling and part of this is based on the demise of a friendship that I thought was one of those “till the end of time” ones.

Sorry that this is such a depressing post – just something that has been on my mind a lot lately!!!  

Happy Tuesday!


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.

CommentLuv badge