Self-Doubt

Today’s 43 was a fairly simple one!!!  I just did a twisting knee repeater with a band on my arms so that they had a little resistance!

start
start
knee up above waist & twist
knee up above waist & twist

This was a quick move – cardio based and good for the core!!!  And, of course, a double!!!

ready for 43 more
ready for 43 more
knee up
knee up

It’s nice to have quick simple moves for my 43 every once in awhile!!!

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Today I did a trial run for my upcoming 44 miles!!!  It did not go well!!!!

I’m not sure what the problem was.  I’m hoping to run about 10 minute miles for the whole run (44 miles).  Today I started around 9:13 pace and played around between that pace and 10:00.  Nothing felt good. Nothing was easy.  WHAT?!

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In the end, I only ran 6 miles and walked 1.5 for a total of 7.5 miles which is about 1/6 of the distance that I will be running in less than 2 weeks.

I’m not feeling very confident about my ability to run (or even finish) all 44 miles.  And, the 44 is supposed to be my final training effort for my 50 mile race in October!  

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I’m going to spend a lot of time the next few days trying to prepare myself mentally.  I know that I have done the physical training and put in the time and effort, now it is just a matter of making sure that I don’t psyche myself out!!!

I’ve always said that these super long runs are as much mental as physical and I think that right now I need to focus on making sure that I’m prepared to push past the self-doubt and negative voices in my head!!!

Screen shot 2013-09-04 at 6.57.08 AMI’m going to keep telling myself that – “I got this!”  

What do you do when you start to doubt yourself?

 

Happy Wednesday!

Kim